The real and ethereal
merge into one thought
when winter acquiesces
to the warmth of spring
and sunlight slowly melts
into dark shadows. ~ms
I have not written anything since December (I sincerely hope that I was missed). The winter was extremely harsh, in more ways than one. In January, I spent a few days in a hospital bed after surgery. All of the pain medication that I was given left me with the impression that everything was unreal. So I was there and not there; hurting and not hurting at the same time.
When I returned home, I had to spend a week in bed. I found it difficult to get up and down, or even retrieve something that had dropped to the floor. I certainly was not used to feeling so helpless! My sympathetic cats kindly decided to spend most of their time in bed next to me, pretending that they also felt the pain. Their empathetic poses did make smile.
Unfortunately, it seems that my desire to write decided to spend most of this abnormally cold winter curled up under warm blankets too, just like my cats.
Now it is April and suddenly the warmth of spring is turning gray into green. Flowers are popping up everywhere. Aha! I have fully recovered. Creativity lives!
This morning, while rummaging through some boxes, I found another paper that I had written in an English class back in 1993, reminding me that I definitely need to rise up and take pen to paper (or fingers to keyboard) once again.
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Reading through my writing, I search for the feeling within the words. I listen carefully for the voice. Sometimes entire sentences jump out at me, rebelliously, demanding to be discarded. Frustration! But then, suddenly, unexpected coalitions arise between disconnected words, creating new meanings. Revelations! When words come to life and begin to rewrite my thinking, I get excited.
Writing is addictive. Even when I am frustrated, I have difficulty walking away from it. Once I begin creating and reshaping, I have a hard time stopping. I am never satisfied with anything I have written, until I have mercilessly edited, reread, rewritten and edited some more. And then, just when I think I am finished, I see something else that could have been better if, and maybe I should….
.As long as there are thought to think, and dreams to dream, a true writer will never have the last word!
Before I Forget 
U’r cats are so adorable! Perhaps u can write about them. 🙂
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I have written about my cats from time to time.
Don’t want to give anyone a fur/pur overload, so I try not to write about them too much! There is my blog “Low Tech Computer Screen Blockers”…that shows them at their finest. 🙂
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Nice to have you back Mary. I hope you have recovered well, and the the creative juices continue to flow.
Sending warm wishes for a beautiful spring for you.
Alison
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I have been wondering where you have been traveling lately..I am going to have to come over to your blog and find out!
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Missed reading your posts and the great images–glad you’re back.
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Thank you…it’s good to be back!!
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Had to look twice to ensure that it was you. This is lovely. Welcome back
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Thank you so much Eddie!
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I hope you’re all recovered after such an awful thing to have happen. Your cats were such good company, and beautiful, too.
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I am mostly recovered AND I hope that I never have to do that again!!
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Best wishes for that to be the last of that!
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Thank you….I’ll take all the wishes I can get and save them for a rainy day!
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The desire to write again is a sure sign you’re on the mend – wishing you strength to strength.
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I hope so!
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Sorry you had to go through that and had such a harsh winter. Hope you are recovering greatly and move forward with much ease, grace, good health and inspiration!
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With the colors of spring and warmth in the air….life will surely get better.
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I’ve been checking on your blog many times since December – happy to have you back!! Also glad you’re starting to feel better as spring reveals it beauty.
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Thanks Tiny….nice to know you were thinking of me. 🙂
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Mary – sorry to hear you have been ill and the winter drifted by. It’s great to have you back on the web again. Very best wishes from Orkney, Graham
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I would have been sadder if a summer had drifted by! Thanks for sending good wishes all the way from Orkney…. 🙂
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Welcome back and glad you are on the mend 🙂
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Thanks…In the hospital, I almost lost touch with the earth beneath my feet! 😉
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welcome back to all the promise that spring melts and softens into shadow
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A beautiful place spring is….glad that I can go out and walk in the warm sun.
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Your Winter has gone! Enjoy the Spring! As I see your readers are waiting for your writing, so do I. You are again in blogosphere. Thank you.
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Thank you Alexander…so nice to know you! On the blogosphere, it is quite possible to meet and never meet at the same time—a fascinating place it is!
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You absolutely right, Mary. It is nice place to meet people.
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I was just coming by to find out why we hadn’t seen a post in so long and I discover you haven’t been well. I am so sorry to hear it and do hope you are feeling much better now!! Take care Mary.
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It’s been a little rough, that’s for sure!!
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Mary, I love your thought, “a true writer will never have the last word.” It comforts me to know I’m not alone in continually finding more to edit. Writing quotes are the cats that curl up beside me with their warm presence and comforting purr, reminding me I’m not alone.
Blessings of healing ~ Wendy ❀
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Thanks Wendy!
So many things going on right now….I still haven’t gotten back to writing again.
But ideas are always running around in my mind. 🙂
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“ideas…always running around” is a good sign. 🙂
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Welcome back! 🙂
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Seems I have been gone more than present lately. Life. It keeps happening to me.
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And a good thing it keeps happening 🙂
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Welcome back, Mary! Good to see you again. Sometimes life gives you a turnover – but gives you new strenght. Hopefully you are OK now!
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I’m trying to get back to a semblance of ‘normal’ (whatever that is) 😉
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Takes time and there’s nothing to do but letting it, I guess. 🙂
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I am so sorry that you had to go through that hell! that is why you did not answered my questions! I thought you were busy writing your book or like so many of my friends left blogging!
Cats have a strange healing aura in them!
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Yes they do…I totally agree!
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Welcome back 🙂
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I missed you Uncle Spike!!
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I was just wondering why I hadn’t visited your site in awhile, now I see. My goodness, Mary, what an ordeal. I am glad you’re on the healing road, and am happy to be enjoying your lovely posts again. Welcome back.
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Yes, my creativity kind of got “cut out” for a while…
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I am so glad you’re back, and I’m sure it’s with new and inspiring insight. 😀
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Thanks. But I am not sure about the new and inspiring insight….I’m tired!!
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Mary, I hope you are healing well! Sending good thoughts your way.
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Thanks Naomi…still hurts but I’m getting there!
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I think applying a kitty is as healing as an ice pack, and it looks like you have two of them!
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Absolutely LOVE the first image — and it appears I have a lot of catching up to do– I hope you are feeling much better (I know my well-wishes are belated) — but better late than never!! 🐻
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This is such a beautiful post… thank you for sharing!
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So sorry to hear that, Mary and I hope that you have fully recovered by now. Somehow I lost you in this “blogosphere” …happy to have found you again.
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Thanks! I am feeling better, but the scar still hurts a wee bit!
For whatever reason, a lot of people that I used to follow have vanished from my WordPress reader too.
Must have been caused by a WordPress update or something. Things are always changing–sometimes for the better; sometimes NOT.
I have been able to find some of the people again….
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